Monthly Archive for November, 2003

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straaangeness…
I had a pretty eventful day.
very glad I’m not bored-at-work anymore.
I think I’m gonna start making lists =o.o=
hehehehe XD

got off work at 2:30 as usual and wandered around fry’s for a while.
movie I watched last year around this time, a first-movie-date-movie, came out on dvd so I got it for
old-times sake.
it’s prolly gonna go on a shelf somewhere, next to monsters, inc. :D
also got a microcon so that now I’ve got four controllers for my gamecube. =^.^=
(da microcon is for my small hands. even size-small -gloves- don’t fit my hands.

when I got home, chzboy2 was parked outside (same as yesterday) so I thought mebbe its owner
was home =0.-=
when I entered my room, the comforter was covering two pillows (but not covering the pillow at the
head of the bed) so it looked like someone was laying there (though there was nobody).
I also caught chocolatebear using the computer…he’d been surfing the net for clothes!
I couldn’t believe it! you think you give yer aminals all the love in the world (every night) but then
they go and do something like that. I couldn’t say anything to him though cause he looked -so-
adorable. he’d even put a booster-pillow underneath himself so he could see the screen. =^.^=

gonna go do s’more drawings an stuff, try to relax. hehehe.
=^.^=
*wavlies her tail at efurrebuddy*

interesting daaaay…

hrm.
started out today with the receiving-software-sup (cesar) wanting my help pluing stuff.
boss OKed it, so I went on to the back and spent the next four hours putting plus on stuff.
it started out decent, put ‘em on dvds. then about an hour and a half before lunch, when I’d
finished putting plus on the wrapping paper rolls, cesar asked me to do the lollipop-candy thingies.
I was pretty much dreading it, but he said there were only 1400 of the damn things, so I said sure
why not.
din’t really matter how many there were since I only ended up putting plus on 1010 of them. :P
gotta wrap the sticker around the stem of the pop, and to do that for any length of time inevitably
ends with your fingers/nails being very sore cause you gotta peel the sticker off the sheet and
then wrap it around as fast as you can (to get to the next one).
turned out there were actually 2660 of them. I fortunately got to go to lunch after the 1010 (five bags out
of twelve) and was needed on the floor after lunch so I didn’t have to do any more damn candies.
annoying :p
hehehe <.<
anyway!
after lunch, things got -very- odd cause my store-manager's friend was wandering around, so I offered
him some help (he wanted info on office 2003 and I was explaining the differences) and he was very
interested in the professional version. meanwhile, the store-manager started talking to a co-worker (male)
and suddenly he jumps into the convo I was having with his friend and says "oh here ask this guy"
I was sorta put out, but whatever. the guy didn't end up getting -anything- (and he'd been about to
buy pro, which -is- what he'd wanted) cause my co-worker didn't know shit about the product, since
he'd never gone to training (he was, after all, up in returns. wasn't sposed to be helping customers buy.)
was annoying since the store-manager assumed (for the second time) that I didn't know anything since
I'm a girl. blah.
the -next- customer was a lady who asked me ridiculous questions about some midi software, said it wasn't
working, so I explained how it was sposed to work and she said "ok" and seemed like she was thinking about
-something-
wasn't sure what it was, but as it turns out, this is what happened next (script-like cause I wrote it out like that
right after it happened)
her name wasn't carrie, I randomly pulled the name from who-knows-where.
here goes:

Carrie: I have this problem with my nose. It itches so much so I'm always picking it. Not in public or anything,
but people think I snort crack or something. Really, I just have bad allergies.

Kitty: Oh, yea. Allergies suck. Should try flonase, or something.

Carrie: Oh No! I'm not putting anything up my nose.

Kitty: Then claratin, that works pretty well.

Carrie: Yea, or chlortrimeton, or something…

-uncomfortable-for-me-pause-

Carrie: Now I don't do this very often, but
(mumbled)sposed to say other stuff but I only have one phone line, just trying to network (mumble) also
suicide hotline, I should put that at the bottom too (mumbles)

Kitty:

and that was the whole scene, cause I needed to go help other customers and she disappeared as strangely as she appeared.
She’s the second person in the past week who has seemed to appear from thin air…very odd. *shrug*
wasn’t sure what she wanted from me, think she wanted me to help her build computers, since that’s what she put on the card.
hehe…=^.^=
anyway.
I guess it’s very important to always get your cards out on the table, eh?

well, jus thought I’d write bout my day, thus far. who knows. mebbe between now and bedtime some -more- odd things will occur. :D

rambledjumbledpoemyear

I’m not typically the romantic type, but here goes:

I tried to remain
unaffected by you
distanced myself,
loved from afar

in staying away
watched you
learned you
the space got bigger

you’re too good
too perfect
too hard for me
to reach across
your perfect space

can’t help it,
I want to invade
your space
I’m scared of
the dark, scared
of falling
but I’ve fallen
in love with you

the distance here
now, is me wondering
why someone like you
would ever love
someone like me

not sure if what I meant to say got out =-.0=
I’m happy where I am, I’m not sure if that was clear. well, content.
mostly I’m scared of being rejected by careless words like “oh, that’s nice”
or “uhm…ok…”
cause I really mean those words, I feel them, and I’m scared of there not
being anything mutual about them. so I’m hiding them until I’m more sure
of how he feels.
I’ve got such little knowledge of the whole love thing.
also figured out that it wasn’t the guy (my ex) I was in love with,
but rather who I wanted him to be.
unforunately he wasn’t that guy, so I could no longer label him as
such…not sure if I’m describing that the way I mean it…

there was something else I wanted to get into this somehow, but I’m
not sure how to work it.
the whole dependancy thing…
I don’t like depending on someone for my well-being, and I -really-
don’t like admitting to it. that’s where a lot of distancing comes
from.
cause of the one-year (yesterday) I did a looot of thinking. it’s still
hard to believe that one year ago, I stood outside andrew-hill HS and waited
for a blue truck, not knowing what to expect, but hoping I could offer the
guy inside some sort of comfort from what was hurting him. I never
expected anything more than friendship, mostly because I was scared of my
own apparent inability to love faithfully (at the time I was a lot more confused on
the issue, and I thought my wandering love was my own fickleness when it was
me not being able to distinguish one type from another). I’ve gained a
lot of perspective on it, and understand what I feel for my friend Allan isn’t
the love I feel for TJ. When they aren’t family, it’s hard to distinguish.
Now I just go by the true feelings, or something? when I think of TJ, I get
shy and scared, and very very happy. Allan (and other friends) is a really really
good friend who makes me feel like one, too. That’s what friends’re for, I think (to help you feel like a friend).

also holding back a lot because of my ex complaining that I loved him too much,
though I think mostly I acted that way because I was obsessed (was my first love, etc),
so yea. who knows. got a lot to learn.
it’s hard to assess your feelings and stuff.
at least I’ve discovered I’m not fickle, and that I know the difference between
my friends and my boyfriend.
course a lot of that stuff got a lot clearer after February. I know I got really clingy
then because I was so scared that I’d lose -everybody-
still get scared like that. don’t wanna lost peter, or mom, or gramma, or grampa…
I don’t want to lose anybody. they’re all so important to me.
that’s the scary part, cause I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle losing someone
as important to me as he is…
he’s my friend, and I feel he is my best friend. I may seem to tell anything to anybody,
but there’re things I only share with him, and trust goes a long way toward the best
part of a friend.

jus been thinking

lotsa stuff on my mind =-.0=
I’ve adjusted (very bad I know) to surviving on very little sleep
it makes me sorta dead. not sure how to describe it. I get very emotional
but have trouble when someone (including myself) asks how I feel about
something. I guess it’s event-triggered emotions or something.
also notice that I’ve been talking a lot more, though I’m not actually aware
of talking, so I don’t know if it really counts? I don’t even realize I’m saying something until my brain tries to tell me I’m about to put the wrong words in the wrong order, or something. earlier today I was gonna say “that game sucks” but my brain thought I was gonna say “that suck games” so I stopped myself (when I was gonna say it the correct way) and started over.
also have trouble trying to figure out what I was -trying- to say when someone says “what?”
cause by then I’ve forgotten what I was trying to say and what I said makes no sense
hehehe…
grah.
I think with this daylight thing happening during the day instead of at night I might get more sleep cause I’ll go to bed earlier an stuff.
whee I work on friday. whee. yea right. (overtime? yay?)
uuuuhm…
I’ve been “officially” moved over to software productivity (OSes, office, all the stuff in boxes that isn’t games or movies or music or books) and I’m feeling very monotonous. at least in games there’s enough variety that I don’t get bored telling people what games are good. in productivity, if they want a firewall, there’s only one I’d recommend. virus-scan, only two, etc.
the people with NT are fun though cause either they pay out of their ass for a good virus-scan, or pay leaf-droppings for some brand they’ve never heard of (global star).
other fun stuff (though it is also getting monotonous) is Windows 98. not only full-versions, but upgrades -to- this OS from 95. The upgrade part is pretty funny/rare. most just want 98 full version :D
though I’m not in games anymore, I wandered over there to help a customer (near the end of my shift today) and somehow managed to get stuck there for the next half hour selling playstations. sold two to two different customers, one also bought DDR2+dance-pad and then an additional dance-pad (over 300 dollars in all) and a memory card. other bought three games, a memory card, and the new + PS2 that lets you play burned dvd +/- r/rws, as well as support for progressive dvd, also has a built-in infra red port (for dvd remote). that was cool. he bought games with high GP :D

Days of the Week:

Sunday -
not allowed to do transfers or anything, only help customers, and there’re more customers than I can handle alone so there’s not much room for boredom. Very good day to get a fry’s card customer (when you’re lucky and the system is actually up)

Monday -
transfers!! and lots of ‘em! first day of the week = completely new transfer sheets. fortunately we don’t have to do them after lunch, gotta help customers by then (or do go-backs, since the trucks have delivered stuff by then). looooong day, I work 11 hours, including lunch.

Tuesday -
DVD/CD releases! hello, Mr. Tuesday! right around 11 it’s a race to see who asks for a break first, hehehe. Our dear beloved Mr. Tuesday is undoubtedly an ebay junkie. he looks for the cheapest prices -possible- (though, gasp, last week he bought simcity 4 deluxe, and it wasn’t even on sale!!) and, since we usually offer deals on stuff that’s just been released (like, that day) he’s there asking where it is and why it isn’t on the shelf where it should be (in whatever genre he feels it should be in). unfortunately Home Office isn’t the brightest when it comes to product placement. when matrix reloaded came out, they’d put FullScreen in Sci-Fi and WideScreen in Action. still trying to figure out how that happened. too many cooks spoil the soup??
at any rate, he’s very pushy and gets easily upset, so everybody wants to be on their break when he comes around. Also, today lots of gamers call because game-companies like to name Tuesday as the release-date when we don’t ever get games until the next day. Stupid fraggin companies.

Wednesday -
phones constantly ringing, starting around 10 (I spose that’s reasonable and all, but our truck-drivers don’t even start work til 8, and they still have to load trucks and drive around. how’re we gonna have product in by 10?? huh??) and they don’t stop when I leave at 2:30, dancing and waggling my tongue at everybody. sometimes butt. hehehe >D

Thursday -
very easy day. around 10:30 we have a department meeting of all the sales-people, jonathan talks at us for half an hour until it’s v-con time, and then we have v-con from 11 until 12. I have lunch from 12 until 12:30. that’s two hours of not-helping-customer-time. :D I also get my paycheck at 12. :D

after that, I don’t work again until Sunday. this week though I gotta work friday.
here’s how that’ll prolly work:

Friday -
“what’re you doing here laura?”
“I thought you didn’t work friday!”
(me)”WHERE ARE ALL MY FRIENDS?? BOO HOO!” (cause they all don’t work the same days I don’t work, cept for some cool people like allan and julie and rexie an stuffs)
day is similar to sunday in that we’ve gotta help customers. I work opening-to-3:30 so I’ll be leaving when kids get out of school, wheehehheee.
haven’t worked friday in productivity yet. see what that’s like.

at any rate!!
enough rambling.
enjoy my days at fry’s ;) (they’re almost always like that. amusing customers aren’t hard to come by, but they are much appreciated. the smarter the better.)

-snuggles to all the kitties of the world-