hehe…
I think playing in the grass on the other side versus seeing it is making me tempermental :F
I’m enjoying a sense of freedom (gettin it a couple times a week now :F) and when I get home, wham.
I feel confined and … well, needed is good, but I feel like I’m an excuse or something. anyway.
Apparently my mother tried to wake me up this morning (around 7:40) hehe, not very good at waking
up that early. specially when I jus fell asleep at 2:30 :F (was up late reading <.<)
mom needed stuff to make her feel better from walgreens and she tried to wake me up so I could
chaperone (she tends to get lost due to permanent meds) but was entirely unsuccessful, so she told
dad she'd be fine, and apparently she is, she's still alive and she was home when I went downstairs.
I din't get scolded (for not waking up) but dad threatened to disconnect the phone line or something…
not really sure…at any rate. other things are piling up, issues with money and places-to-live and food,
diapers, little brothers who need watching, stuff like that. jobs in my father's field are scarce, so he's
been lookin for a job for a while (scarcer due to his age, he's over 50) and it looks like we're gonna have
to move out. dad's lookin into arizona or some place -other- than california, and I like it fine here, so I'm
really getting harried and needing to find a job and find a place to stay. =-.0= feeling a little better after
doing some research. in the immediate area, there're some decent places whose owner(s) are lookin for
renters, very very reasponably priced. Even with minimum wage I could handle it. I don't eat much so
that's not a problem :F
one person who's renting mentioned a restaurant/waitressing job, and I'm short and stuff, but I'm more
physically…proportional? than I was in the previous months, so I think I could do ok at a job like that
in appearances. I'll jus have to learn to balance large trays of food and such :F
I'm open for pretty much any job at this point, cept for selling my body. =-.0=
not really sure what else to put here today.
watched peter for a couple hours while dad took mom to the doctor. she hasn't been feeling well at all
today. apparently she finally threw up in the car on the way home, then blew her nose and her ears
unclogged, and now she's feeling a lot better. that's always good 
pray for me please (unless ya dun pray, then jus think good thoughts at me and for my family especially.
I hope they'll be able to do alright without me. I mean, they were fine when I wasn't here, right? they should
be fine if I am not here again. =0.-= I've got lots of stuff that makes me not want to leave california, and
especially San Jose. I grew up here, know the area pretty well, not to mention I live damn close to
one of my favorite parks, Great America (and no I dun mean the towing company) :F
anyway <.<
*wiggles ears*
stuff. :F
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